Choosing a word, one word, to describe what I am anticipating for this new year is not an easy thing to do….usually. But this year it came to me in such a simple way that I couldn’t ignore it.
Change is always challenging and these last four years have been all about navigating a lot of changes in my life. 2019 begins year number five and as it was nearing a close in December a lightness and anticipation began inside of me. There wasn’t any one thing I can identify that made me realize my “word” for the year but this “lightness” was so noticeable it made me pay attention to it. The last few years I have felt the exact opposite. A heaviness has seemed to envelope me in so many ways and affected my everyday life in a way I had never experienced before. So feeling “light” was such a change it was easy to notice. No one around me commented about it but it was something inside that made me realize there is a change in the air and I began to be excited about it.
Some people say it takes up to five years to begin to adjust to a lot of change and maybe that is true. I just know that I like it….whatever it is. I wouldn’t trade all that I have experienced, in 2018 especially. It wasn’t the easiest year, that is for sure. But easy isn’t always the best and I know I have benefited from the difficulties and have become a stronger, more secure person because of it. There is good in everything….especially when you trust God with your life. His faithfulness and goodness never ends and I experienced so much from those attributes last year.
This year I am excited to experience whatever He brings my way. My word for the year is ENJOY! Enjoy life, enjoy God, enjoy my family, enjoy my friends, just ENJOY. I know that isn’t deep or necessarily profound but in my practical, ordinary way it means so much to me. God has been so good to me and I have ignored His goodness because it wasn’t what I wanted or necessarily expected. There is so much enjoyment to be had in my everyday living and I have been one who has not taken the time to even consider enjoying them. Well, this year is different!
So….my word for 2019 is to ENJOY EVERYTHING THAT COMES MY WAY, EVERY DAY AND IN EVERY WAY I POSSIBLY CAN! This picture says it all!!
Fall (Autumn) is upon us. Summer of 2018 is gone. Here in Florida the leaves don’t change and even though it might look colder outside because it is raining, it is still hot and humid. Our Fall is our hurricane season and it was one year ago that we lived through Hurricane Irma. Every hurricane brings loss to those who go through it. We lost our electricity for 4 days and thus lost food in our fridge. Fortunately, we had no other loss but others in the path of that storm did.
Seasons of life experience their storms as well and this season of life seems to be full of storms that bring huge change. The hardest storm is experiencing the loss of close relationships. Loss is so difficult whether it’s your parents or your best friend. My husband and I have lost a father, a brother, very close friends and several people we looked to as mentors and advisors in the last six years. My heart breaks for the husbands, wives, children, grandchildren, parents, siblings and friends who find themselves walking this road of loss. Trusting in God takes on a whole new meaning when you are faced with living in the season of loss.
How do you live in change when the familiar is gone? It seems to happen a lot in this season of life. Your job changes, you downsize your living space, your children leave home, you move away from familiar surroundings, and you lose loved ones. Sometimes you feel like you have been struck by a wave in the ocean of life and it took your feet out from under you. What do you do? How do you cope?
I’m learning that the best thing to do is to step into your tomorrow one day at a time. Don’t sit in the shadows but choose to step into the light. Every day brings a little more insight into the future. Each day God provides the hope that His plan for your life is still the same. His provision and care for you has not changed. In fact, I am convinced that since He is not surprised by the changes in your life, He has already gone ahead and made provision for you. He is ready to be what you need as you live in this new season. A friend of mine who recently lost her husband said it this way:
“I have to step out of my comfort zone so I can experience all that God has for me in the days ahead.”
This is my prayer for me and for anyone else who finds themselves in a season of change and loss:
“Lord, open my eyes and my heart to see Your goodness in this season. Give me a glimpse of the other side of this feeling of loss and sadness so I can live with joy all that you have for me. I don’t want to regret this time of my life. I trust you Lord!”
Remembering those we love, treasuring the memories and missing them every day!